so what I'm not married.

Random Friend: "so are you married?"
Me: "no"
Random Friend: "engaged?"
Me: "no"
Random Friend: "dating anyone?" (their voice begins to get a little shaky, as the awkwardness of the questions becomes more apparent)
Me: "nope"
Random Friend: "oh, don't worry. You'll find someone, he's out there"
Me: smile and nod. while thinking, If one more person asks me this question I'm going to scream. Do I look worried? Do I really look that desperate?

So what, I'm not married. Do I want to get married someday? well sure. Do I want to be single my whole life? hell no. My grandma is constantly reminding me that my time is running out. I am almost 24, apparently that is the cut off age of ever finding someone. My mom is telling me all the time how much she wants grandchildren. I have news for her, that is a LONG ways away. Most of my friends are either engaged, married, or dating seriously. So of course they see it as part of their duty to encourage me. Usually by telling me how they just know I'll get married. God is just waiting to bring me the perfect guy. Look its happened for them, It will happen for me.I'm probably coming across as bitter, which is not my intent, and not how i feel at all. I obviously love my grandma, my mom, and my friends very much. I think its sweet how they are so concerned and want me to be happy.

Honestly, It's not very easy being a single Jesus loving girl. First off, I have no one to change my oil, or tell me when something is wrong with my car. Second off, I have no one to go to weddings with me. I dread the invitations that read "Tanya and guest." Finally, you think its hard finding a nice guy? Well It's even harder finding a nice guy, who passionately loves God. Oh, and they have to be into ministry too. Hm, maybe my standards are too high?...... Nope. I don't think so.

You know what is great about this time though? I'm Single. I don't have to worry about a husband or kids, and all the responsibility that comes along with it. I don't have to ask before I spend money. I don't have to check another schedule before I make plans with my friends. I can sleep through a whole night without getting woken up by a kid crawling into bed with me. Oh, and the best part is I have so much more time to spend with my Jesus. I cherish my days. These are times when I can spend hours learning and growing. Resting in his presence. Listening to his voice. Doing whatever he tells me to do.

It is a great season, and I am truly grateful.

But, God if your listening..... I would rather not have to take care of my own car my whole life. :)