the worse?

We all think we are the worse. I know in my own mind as I'm reading over the words of Paul where he declares he is the worst sinner I laugh. "okay maybe Paul was the worse before me." I dare to guarantee this has crossed the mind of thousands upon thousands of Christians. We are all so hard on ourselves. I see it all around me. Will there ever be a point where we let ourselves breath? Its a tough balance. I don't mean we allow ourselves to blatantly sin, in obvious rejection of the truth but is it really necessary we tear ourselves apart when we do. I have been there in some of the lowest points of my life. It does nothing but make it worse when we dwell on how disappointed we have made our savior. We are suppose to feel it. Its called conviction. But when we do, we need to turn and run not think about it, internalize it, and make it a part of us. When we do make it a part of us we begin to destroy the plans that Christ has for us. we hurt ourselves. we break ourselves. we don't allow ourselves to be the believers we are called to be. We hurt the one who created us. We don't give him enough credit. How many times does he have to say my grace is enough. He does not want us to run. He wants us to face up to the sin, confess, let him love us, and for us to move on. God wants us to be free. He never intended for us to imprison ourselves. He gave his life so we could be free. In the words of Rob Bell, "There is nothing we can ever do to make him love us any less. Nothing. Nothing."